RAINY COLD NIGHT

It is now rainy and very cold outside,missing you in such a sleepless solitude tonight,and never mind whether you are aware of that or not! Never mind what will happen tomorrow,just thinking of you on a long long journey .In addition,do you know that more and more yearning assembled to my heart each day without your sigh.
Do you know that sometimes I am scared of you.Do you know that I am eager to be the girl whom you can’t take your pretty eyes away from. And I don’t wanna be so shy,every time that I am alone I wonder why,hope that you will wait for me ,and you will see that you are the only one for me !you know that is true.But everytime you come to close,I move away all because of my lack of confidence. because of you ,I forget the smart way to lie ;because of you I hide in the crowded street to cry,when the friends are gone,when the work is over,I am running out of reasons to grieve.The fact is that I expect your hug heavily.Look into my eyes,you will see that you are everything. I wanna believe everything that you say, because it sounds so good.you know all I really want is to hold you tight,treat you right ,be with you day and night. You know with you by my side,the tears tastes sweet.And you own the place,Where all my thoughts go hiding!Hope that's an endless story !
Unfortunately,I encountered with some trouble which confessedly instituted the grief and indignity, I should have known all along There was something wrong ,I just never read between the lines ,Then I woke up one day,everything has gone!I was so dismayed that nobody could convince me. But tell me if there's a way to bring to retrieval , what can I do to make it up, I don’t know how to meet the need! All I need is time,of course I comprehend the meaning of the proverb:no pain,no gain.so I never give up. so baby tell me that it’s worth to try,it’s worth to fight. Don't get me wrong ,so don’t be solicitous about me!
At this time ,I don’t know where you are ,what you aredoing,when youwill be back home.make sure you are all right.please don’t be addicted in the drink again,you know that is harmful for your heath,the most important reason is that I need your accompany for a long long time.hope everything goes well with you!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

Today is my birthday,no cheer,no gladness,for somehow,I am immersed in some disappointment and desolation instead of the celebration.In spite of that ,I bless for myself sincerely:HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,DUODUO!CHEER UP,YOU CAN MAKE IT!Have you forgot the proverb embalmed in your heart:”If you work with a strong mind ,you will overcome any difficulty however hard it is .”and never give up!All the sentences are known well for me ,but all are meaningless at this moment.
I don’t know how to express my deep sorriness,while every one don’t care.
Perhaps that is another chance ,nothing is eternal and nothing can last for ever!anyone who can tell me if it is the very time I should leave,or keep back as usual.no responses!Only a voice beside the ear: just do it!!!!yes ,just do it !I can make it !nothing is difficult if you has a hope.the confidence is so important for me not only at this time.but also in my whole life!
My younger brother wished me a greeting this morning ,following my good friend’s wish ,my parents paid the attention for my birthday,those were so gratifying, I am content with my lot!
Unforgiveable sinner!!!!
Maybe the curse come true!I am so so tired!where is the freedom ? how to retrieve ? when will the hatred end?and Who will die with a grievance at last?nobody can explain,the grief broke down my heart!
Everything in my eyes is nothing!